End of the Year Personal Evaluation
Yesterday was my last day of school. Nine months in Morocco…I
can’t believe i(I thought I would never say that) my study abroad is already over. I’m heading to Turkey on Sunday and I can’t believe I’m
leaving my ultimate comfort zone . I’ve
grown so much as a person being in Morocco. I have blogged a little about the
idea of “finding yourself”, which I think is a silly idea, but I do think you
become more accepting of yourself. You grow as an individual because you are
put into situations where you realize who you are and what you stand for.
One of
the biggest things I have realized while being in Morocco is that I am a black
feminist. There are not a lot of women of color who are feminists. Being here has made me realize there is not
enough black women on the front line fighting for the equality in both
sectors. Being a double minority is
difficult, the odds are stacked against you in a place where you still are
overcoming the recent Jim Crow laws—and Treyvon Martin cases. Our Black and African communities are fostered
around religion; our religions need to create an identity within women to balance
the scale of inequality.
I have
expanded my knowledge about Islam, which is an INCREDIBLE religion, which
teaches peace and selflessness…when practiced correctly (like any other
religion). The west, Americans especially, seem to be so hyper-sensitive when
it comes to Muslims. First of everyone needs
to understand Islam is an Abrahamic Religion just like Judaism and
Christianity. The route goes like this—
First there are Judaism, the chosen people of God, followers
of Moses
Second there are the Christians who believe that Jesus
Christ was the Messiah—another form of God
Third we have Islam—first of all the word Islam means total SUBMISSION
to God, they believe in the same God, but use the word Allah which cannot be
used in gender form unlike God—Goddess…They believe in only Allah and that Mohammed
was his last Prophet, they believe in Jesus, Mary, Moses, etc.
Americans (including myself) we need to brush up on your
religious studies...
I have
also realized who my true friends are, communication is a two way street. When
people call you up at the end of your program so you remember to bring them
souvenirs, it’s like, “where have you been these last nine months”?
I also APPRECIATE my family so
much more. The support they give me is unforgettable, I feel like I can conquer the
world and I know I can rely on them no matter how far apart we are!
Patience,
this is also another thing I have blogged about before…this is something we
Americans need to work on. Being in Morocco we all understand the concept of
Moroccan Time, which essentially means Morocco does not run on this said
concept of time. Time is non-existent, which sometimes can be really
eye-opening in the way that you learn to appreciate the small things in life
like organization and timely fashion back in the United States, but you also
understand that life is often times taken TOO seriously. Life is meant to be enjoyed and that is
DEFINITELY another thing I will be implementing into my life back home in the
United States.
The last
and MOST important thing I have learned about myself is to enjoy my own
company. I can do anything and everything alone. I’m not suggesting a system of
total isolation, but Americans are so plugged into Social media…we are
constantly worried about FOMO (fear of missing out). We have to be constantly
posting, talking, and hanging out with people. When you learn to enjoy your own
company it’s the MOST liberating experience. Realizing you don’t NEED people is
the best because you know you genuinely want to spend time with that person;
they are not just time filler.
This is my last blog whilst in Morocco, but I will be keeping you all up to date on current events as I travel around this summer.
Thank you for all your support these last nine months.
Enjoy your summer.
Best,
Ida Ayalew